Fall

I love the fall! I love the colors. I love the smells. I love fall decor. I love pulling out my confortable sweats to wear at home. I love wrapping up in my favorite sweater or hoodie. I love everything about the fall. Now its the end of September, where is fall? I am tired of the heat even though its not that hot right now, its still humid!
I have been fighting the urge to get out my fall stuff and start changing over my house but I think I am done fighting that urge this weekend. It is time for fall, maybe if I decorate fall will come.

Another gem from the monster

Everynight the monster is supposed to read for 20 min. He gets his book willingly but then he gets distracted by everything!!! Its very frustrating to deal with him asking questions and wanting to talk only for me to look at him and realize he has decided this is his reading time! and he thinks that the converstation counts as his reading time so if he starts at 8:05 then asks me a question and we talk for 5 min, he still stops at 8:25, thinking nothing of it.

Last night as he is reading he starts singing out loud, when I ask what he is doing he responds "multitasking, can't you?" ARG! The mouth on this one. I swear.

10 years ago today...

I was awoken at 2 AM with the beginnings of labor. By 6pm 10 years ago I was checked into the hospital waiting on the arrival of my little guy. Then at 7:03AM on 9/9/00 he was born.

Now I do not consider myself an overly emotional person but just thinking about the fact that my child is going to be 10 years old tomorrow has thrown me through a ridiculous loop!! I pulled out his baby photos, I posted one on the FB and everything! I have been thinking about tomorrow's FB post and everything I think about is incredibly cheesy but all true. I look at him and am just amazed at how fast he has grown and how much he is like me and my family. I am so blessed to have been given the opportunity to raise this child and just pray I do not cause to high a therapist bill when he is an adult.

I have been stressing about how to celebrate his big day for months. He decided he didn't want a party b/c he wanted me to buy him a long board!! He knows how expensive the boards are and thought he had a better chance of getting it if I didn't throw the party. He got his way and there is no party and he got the board tonight which has him too excited its unreal. Tomorrow I will wake him up with a present and have one to match on my desk at work since he is going with me for my half day of work. Then I will take him to the skate park before home for dinner and ice cream cake. We then have cake/ice cream with my fam on Sat night and his dad's family on Sunday afternoon. Then next Friday a karaoke night with some of my friends. So for not having a party this child sure is getting to celebrate an awful lot!

Well off to make sure his gift is ready for tomorrow as my child grows into a man....(so not ready for what's coming next!!!)

I broke it off...

With the guy that I have been seeing since May, it didn't go so well. I was worried it wouldn't so it took me a while to get up the courage to break up with him. I feel bad b/c he's a good guy just so not the guy for me. He wants much more from a relationship than I do and he wants to move at warp speed which was just annoying. I know some women would swoon over this stuff but not me, I know I am odd and probably broken.
He accused me of breaking up with him b/c he is not good enough for me, I swear if he were standing in front of me I would have punched him for that stupid comment! I do not think I am too good for him I think I want a different kind of relationship. I felt very pressured and yes I probably should have told him all of this but at the point when I felt it I just shut down.
I have an on/off switch, I don't know what flicks it but its there and he flipped it and I was done. Sorry, there is no nice way to say that so I tried to be as nice and gentle as possible but he kept goading me into it. blah!!!
So there it is we are broken up and I am single once again. I think its better this way as the monster has decided to not want to stay the night with the ex laws which ends my time in the dating pool. Fun times...

To post of not to post...

I am frustrated with work and some situations that have arisen as of late. I have a nice blog detailing (as vague as possible) some of my greievence but I don't think its appropriate to post which is annoying but I do not want to hurt any future employment by complaining about current employment. Blah!

So instead I will post some funnies from my child:
He is staying with his father at his grandmothers house where his aunt, uncle, and 2 cousins live. The other day his cousins came home with posters for their room and the monster was upset b/c he didn't get one. I know spoiled kid but whatever. So that night we went to Walmart (which if you know me you know that is a feat in itself). I bought him a new skateboard toy and told him we had to pick out things for his cousins since he was getting something new. He asked why so I reminded him of the poster incident and asked what he thought of doing the same thing to them. He response was "its payback". Oy vey! kid. He said it with a strait face too. So I had to explain that we would not be doing that and he needed to get them something so they wouldn't feel bad.

Another one: The monster has gotten in the habit of saying things like I am your favority son/child when he is asking for things. "Please, I am your favorite child/son" well he and his dad were talking and somehow his father being his favorite father came up and the monster says "your my favority, for now" LMAO!!! too funny. I love that he qualified it, for now. He NEVER says that to me! Hee hee. I love my son!

Musings...

Over the weekend I was out with the child, my brother, and some friends. I was sending a text message but wouldn't tell my brother to who so my child responds "its her new boyfriend that she hasn't told me about yet." The funny thing is that it is a new gentlemen that I am talking to but he is not my boyfriend. So this has taught me that my child is annoyingly observant.

If you offer to help me and I tell you what I need but you push it back on me how is that helpful? I am just asking. I am so annoyed with work people.

What is wrong with people

Tonight in Baltimore a man was killed while riding his motorcycle. The motorcyclist was driving at "a high rate of speed" and swerved to avoid crashing into a dirt bike going slower. He swerved into a pole and died. This is sad and my heart goes out to his family. This is unfortunatly not uncommon but the dirt bike issue is. So the driver of the dirt bike was holding on to a 2 year old child which probably explains the driver going slower then the motorcycle. The dirt bike driver dropped the child off in an alley and fled the scene of the accident. Yes you read that right this ASSHOLE dropped a child off in the middle of the alley to flee an accident.
Oh but wait there's more... the child was reunited with his family and the family is not cooperating with police. So here is my question, why would the cops give a family back a child was allowed to go on a joy ride in someone's arms on a dirt bike??????? Since the family is not helping out I can only assume they are covering 1. their ass's for letting someone drive with a 2 year old on a dirt bike in their arms and 2. that person who was involved in the crash. What is wrong with people???? Child protective services needs to step in and take that child away from parents who are not protecting their child!!!