Tuesday, November 15, 2011

All I want to do is cry

And I realize this is such an irrational response, but this is how I feel.

My child decided he wants to go visit his dad on the west coast for Thanksgiving week. I said ok not really thinking his dad would be able to come up with the money to buy the ticket. I was wrong he found the money or said he had. It took him forever to send me the flight information and then only the flight leaving home not the one coming back. So I clung to the hope that he didn't buy the return flight and if that was the case I wasn't sending him there since I wasn't going to buy the return flight.

Well tonight he finally sent me the return flight information and its a day later than we had talked about. I am pissed!!! We discussed my son missing one day of school and now he is going to miss two days and he isn't getting back until 8:55PM on Tuesday night. So Wednesday is going to be a hell of a day for my son which is going to make the rest of the week really bad too.

When I mentioned the extra day, the fact that I was just finding out about it now, and how late my son is getting in the ex got indignant with me!!!! I am so annoyed. He said that there is a weather advisory for Monday so he couldn't schedule the flight on Monday and that there is an issue for the weekend too so the only other choice was Tuesday. Then the ex says "what's the big deal with the child doesn't go to bed until 9:45PM anyway??? The big deal is the plane is supposed to land at 8:55 but there is no guarantee that it will and then I will have to get him home so I figure it will be 10pm by the time I get home and then he has to unwind to get up the next morning.

This all around just blows!!! I asked the ex to change the flight to an earlier one but I doubt he will since he is pissed at me since I didn't have a conversation with him about possibly piercing the child's ears.

All I want to do is cry right now. I don't want to my child to be elsewhere on a holiday, even if it is only on Thanksgiving, I don't want my child to fly across the country by himself, but most selfishly I don't want my child to enjoy himself and consider moving with his father. I just want to cry.