I am tired of being a man's stand in until they find who they are looking for.
I met this guy online in Nov/Dec and I thought we hit it off and have similar personalities but today he emails me and tells me he is talking to someone else. ok fine, good luck with that. But the more I sat here the madder I got..WTH buddy he would only talk to me during work hours via email and only wanted to get together if he was going to get some. Instead of taking the high road I told him that. At one point he says "I really enjoy talking to ya and think ur a smart, funny, sexy girl...I don't know" Again WTH??? So I responded "you do know and its not me, good luck."
After all of this all I want is a big old glass of wine and a Hershey bar but 1. I am at work and 2. I gave up chocolate for lent, boo!!! And now my question to the universe: When am I going to meet a man who wants me for me and not a damn stand in?
Monday, March 14, 2011
Friday, March 4, 2011
Could I leave the Monster?
The answer to this question is a resounding Hell No!
I was catching up on my yahoo tonight when I came across this article:
The women in this article have given up being full time mom's and decided to go "find themselves" or "be there person they could have been at 20" WTH is that???? That is a load of horse shit!!! This goes for both mom's and dad's. How can you decide that you no longer want to be a parent, shouldn't you think about this before you either knock someone up or spread your legs? I mean come on now people.
I know parenting is hard, believe me I know! Its hard as part of a parenting unit and its hard by yourself. But you have 9 months to think about what you want to do before the child is born why do that to a kid or kids? I cannot imagine that the line in the article about the parents being closer to kids farther away is true, not for the children. Children need their parents, both of them!
The reason my ex is referred to as Captain Jackass doesn't have anything to do with his cheating but entirely over his horrible treatment of the monster since we split. There are some things I find unforgivable and truthfully cheating isn't necessarily on top of that list. Its all about children. It drives me nuts when people say they don't have time or money for their children but make tons of time for their personal desires ie. nights out with friends, pampering themselves, buying new electronics, ect. My ex once bought a new stereo for his car but couldn't give me child support and when I pointed this out he said it was only $50, well that was $50 I could have used for new clothes or food or gas to drive the child everywhere. He decided around the time of my sons 5th birthday that is was better for them not to see each other. What is that about??? I was so mad. I think it had to do with his mistress not liking the fact that he had a child. I cannot figure out why anyone would chose not to see their child???
I know I complain about the monster and his attitude and that I like a break every now and then but I do not ever want a permanent break from him, he is mi vida. Some day I will be able to look back at these posts and those on his blog and regale his future family of stories of a husband, father, uncle becoming a man and testing his boundaries. How can anyone decide to walk away from a life they helped create and mold for a time period. (I am not talking about adoption where a person decides to give up a child to a better life then they can provide, to make that difficult decision I applaud a person).
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