CRAP!!!

I have never disappointed my child and I am afraid I am about to!! I waited to long to get tickets to a 3 day event this weekend and now they may be all sold out. I am going to try again tomorrow and if I have too at will call when we get down there on Thursday but oh no!!! I really really do not want to disappoint him. I feel absolutely horrible for not planning this better. I was waiting to get the money back from my ex but I shouldn't have I should have bought them right when they went on sale rather than wait until I thought I was in a better place. CRAP!!! I feel like ass right now. I am praying that we can work this out. I do not want to disappoint him at all. I have learned my lesson I will not wait until the last minute anymore. ARG!!!

Why does the Captain always pick crazy women????

My child went to visit his father at the end of last month and now it's time for me to have to go get him. Which means I have to fly to NM where his dad is currently living to get him. This has been the plan for a couple of months now. I tried to talk the monster into flying home alone with no such luck. I will tell the ex and child that if this is to happen next summer the child will be flying home alone but that can wait until next year.

So talking to captain last night he asked when I am arriving when I told him and asked if he was coming to pick me up he said No, his dad is going to. Ok is the monster coming? No is his response???? Are you kidding me, I haven't seen my child in over 3 weeks and he won't be at the airport??? Ok fine. Then he proceeds to tell me that I will be staying with his father??? I have met this man 2 x's in my life and spoken to him a handful of times and now I have to stay with his and his new wife and kids, wonderful!!!

The ex told me that the new girlfriend thought he wanted to get back together with me and told him that he could come back. WHAT????? Do I get a say in this??? BC if I do let me say unequivocally for the 1000th time that that will NEVER happen. This makes me think this chick is insecure and probably slightly crazy, wonderful!!

Some mistake my passion/irritation for still having feelings for him but in truth it has nothing to do with him and everything to do with my son. How could I ever be with a person who never thinks of their child??? Once he left he was gone, no looking back, full speed a head with his life and be damned the child he left behind. Why would I want to be with that???? So when I get there I have to think of a nice way to tell the ex's new girlfriend that I think he is a piece of crap and I will never get back with him. That is of course if I meet her, which I would like to but only for selfish reasons, as I understand it they live in a pink trailer, and I would really really like a picture of this trailer.

Here's hoping this weekend goes well and I arrive back in MD on time with my child Sunday night...