Boys

This weekend my son is out of town with his father. I was very conflicted about letting him go. They went out of state which meant a flight and that scared me but the monster called as soon as they landed, not even off the plane yet and he called. I felt so much better after that call. I know I was doing the scared mom thing, I need to let go some! LOL.
I have been seeing this guy who did everything right when it came to "us" he called, he came to see me, he turned his schedule around for me. But I just didn't feel it. I feel horrible b/c he told me he was really into me. It sucks, I didn't want to hurt his feelings but I felt like we were just friends not boyfriend/girlfriend. I kept trying to stick it out b/c maybe I would start to feel differently but not so much. So tonight I told him. He was ever the gentleman and thanked me for the time he had to get to know me and then sent me a cute text message. All of this makes me wonder if I did the right thing. I have to put my list down or else I will forever second guess myself. So here goes:
-he pushed for the title of boyfriend
-he completely screwed over a friend, he eventually made things right but it took some time and a few to many lies for my liking.
-he came on really strong! I mean within a week of dating he told me I had his heart and he couldn't stand to leave me; then there was the "i miss you" before he had even left me-I know most people would say aww but that made me go oh no!
-he wasn't always truthful and I know you don't have to tell your significant other everything but when I can look up stuff online and see that it's a lie, that is kind of annoying and makes me question other things too.
-lastly he flat out told me he was the jealous kind so maybe that made me look at some behavior differently but I HATE it when I feel like I am being checked up on, text me when you get to target, text when you leave then when you get home. I felt like he was keeping tabs. Again maybe I was reading to much into that but that's how it made me feel.
So there is my case in a nutshell for me to look back on whenever I start to think about things. I guess this week will be the true teller of how I feel. If I miss him I made the wrong decision but if I don't then I did the right thing.

Weekend

I am going out of town this weekend on a church retreat. I have to leave work early for this weekend long meeting but I get to take alcohol. At the Tuesday meeting about this one woman spoke up and mentioned that there is almost always a 5th around at these things. This is too funny! So I am going to stop by the liquor store on my way outta town. Wonder how productive this weekend will be. My mother cautioned me not to get to lit b/c I am going to have to be coherent in the morning. Man she is a buzz kill sometimes :)

I hate being an adult

So the first post about the ex. The last tie I have with him is a car loan, I am first which means that as he stopped paying my credit tanked. The car was leased on this really cool program that would allow you to refinance the balloon amount and keep that car. 4 years ago when we bought the car that was what we were going to do. A year later we were done and the car drama started. He has done nothing about this car now that the lease is up accept whine that he wants to keep the car and ask me to co-sign another loan. Now why should I do that when he hasn't paid this one on time in over 2 years and I am not getting child support like I should, and I am not getting any help like I should and last b/c I am the one having to pay for my son's ortho work on my own. That is a lot of money. He is 7 but has already started down the braces route.
Back to the car, I am the one who has been doing the running around about it. In clearly states in our divorce papers that its his car but the loan people will not accept that so they have been harassing me. I am going to have to pay on the penalties which was supposed to go to paying off my debt. I am so mad!!! I was finally going to be getting back on my feet and then this crap happens. I know that I can't blame him entirely for the debt that I have but he didn't help me out when I was in school and working part time and raising our son so consequently I had to put a lot on my credit cards that shouldn't have been. I mean come on now. Why do I have to be the adult and deal with all of this? He is 7 years older than me, he should be dealing with it not me!!!!
So as I sit here waiting from a call from the dealership about when and where to drop off the car, I also have to figure out how to get it there b/c it was broken into a few months back and his lazy A$$ didn't get it fixed. Which by the way means more money that I am going to have to pay out of my pocket.
My mom did point out that this means I am completely free of him now. Ok that is a good thing but why do I have to pay to be rid of him? I paid for the divorce and he left me!! I lent him money b/c he was irresponsible, I am still helping him out when do I get to be done!!!
I hate being an adult.

Funny for the evening

Question ... is it possible for a smoke detector to go off from a candle?
Answer... sure can. I don't know how but my son and I managed to set off the smoke detector tonight when we lit the candle in the living room.
Great I am thinking as I am twirling a towel over my head standing on a chair (at 5'1" I have to stand on something to reach just about everything) and hoping my neighbors aren't looking out their window at this very moment. What would they think of such a sight?
Then the kicker my son has decided to start a collection of used matches. I have no idea why but he likes them????? I hope this isn't the start of something worse...

The beginning

I thought the first post I should do should be a little to introduce myself. I am a 25 year old single mom to a 7 year old boy. I grew up in between Baltimore and DC but now live closer to Baltimore.
The condensed version of my story is that I met my son's father when I was 16 and he was 23 and "fell in love". And then I got pregnant when I was 17, gave birth to a bouncing baby boy 6 days before my 18th birthday. Then 2 months later got married and 4 years later that went belly up so we separated. I moved in with my grandmother to finish my last year of college and he moved in with his mistress.
I graduated but it took a year to find a job which is no where in my field but hey it pays the bills and allowed us to move into a house with a roommate. There has been plenty of drama that has gotten me to where I am but I am here, standing and taking care of my business which is more than I can say for my ex. His mistress is now gone and he has had to move in with his sister. I have my son most of the time even though he has finally said he thought he could take him every other weekend. It literally took 3 years to get to that point. I am crossing my fingers that it will work. We will see and I will keep you posted.
So that is me in a nutshell a single mom with silly drama from my ex and probably assorted others.