Not enough of me to go around

Some days I feel like there is not enough of me to go around!!! I am so tired but feel obligated to go on with my plans for today which include Church where I have to print out a bunch of information for a meeting afterwards and get the Christmas Eve sign up sheets out. Then somehow get the kid to his dad's mom bc he wasn't there yesterday as usual. Then get the kid to the skatepark since he missed that yesterday. Then go to my aunts house for a party lite party which is 45 min away. Only to have to come back to get the kid and head home where I will have to get dinner ready and work on the laundry.

So the reason we missed things yesterday was bc the kid had a karate belt test and afterwards we didn't go to the town his dad's family lives in. Why didn't we bc for once I got to stay home on Sat and do things around the house. Which I haven't done in MONTHS it was heavenly!!! But now I have to make up for that today???? ARG. Now taking the kid to the skate park isn't a problem, it will actually help bc he won't have to go to the party lite party and be bored. However getting him to his dad's mom is the problem. I am frustrated when his father calls from across the f--ing country to make me feel bad that I didn't get the child to his family.

Please don't misunderstand I do love his dad's mom, she is an awesome person and great grandmother to my son and a great support for me however sometimes its just hard to get the child over there and his father is no help at all since 3 years ago he decided to leave the state to follow his newest lady friend. Well he married that lady friend and then she went crazy and they split, now rather than return to his childs state he went even further away. So why does he get to make me feel bad if I can't do it all? ARG! The only reason I feel so bad about it is that my son's grandmother is such an awesome person and loves my son unconditionally!

But I still wish I had some help so that I could get everything I need to done...