Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Boys

This weekend my son is out of town with his father. I was very conflicted about letting him go. They went out of state which meant a flight and that scared me but the monster called as soon as they landed, not even off the plane yet and he called. I felt so much better after that call. I know I was doing the scared mom thing, I need to let go some! LOL.
I have been seeing this guy who did everything right when it came to "us" he called, he came to see me, he turned his schedule around for me. But I just didn't feel it. I feel horrible b/c he told me he was really into me. It sucks, I didn't want to hurt his feelings but I felt like we were just friends not boyfriend/girlfriend. I kept trying to stick it out b/c maybe I would start to feel differently but not so much. So tonight I told him. He was ever the gentleman and thanked me for the time he had to get to know me and then sent me a cute text message. All of this makes me wonder if I did the right thing. I have to put my list down or else I will forever second guess myself. So here goes:
-he pushed for the title of boyfriend
-he completely screwed over a friend, he eventually made things right but it took some time and a few to many lies for my liking.
-he came on really strong! I mean within a week of dating he told me I had his heart and he couldn't stand to leave me; then there was the "i miss you" before he had even left me-I know most people would say aww but that made me go oh no!
-he wasn't always truthful and I know you don't have to tell your significant other everything but when I can look up stuff online and see that it's a lie, that is kind of annoying and makes me question other things too.
-lastly he flat out told me he was the jealous kind so maybe that made me look at some behavior differently but I HATE it when I feel like I am being checked up on, text me when you get to target, text when you leave then when you get home. I felt like he was keeping tabs. Again maybe I was reading to much into that but that's how it made me feel.
So there is my case in a nutshell for me to look back on whenever I start to think about things. I guess this week will be the true teller of how I feel. If I miss him I made the wrong decision but if I don't then I did the right thing.

1 comment:

MMC said...

Gah, sorry it didn't work out between you two but if you weren't feeling it, it's good you ended it.